Sarah and Ocean: 4 month check-in

Sarah is starting a monthly check in video diary as baby Ocean grows. 4 months of sleep, colds milestones and more she talks about rituals that she’s picking back up again and what makes her feel good in this season of life!


Baby Ocean 4 months
Ocean is around 19 pounds. She’s 27 inches maybe ? I can hardly remember what I ate today so I guess I’m gonna need to start writing this down.

Baby:
The biggest thing I am noticing are we enter into the world of 4 months is that Ocean is looking more like a baby and not like a newborn. I feel like she has always been “awake” to the world even as a very freshie.. Ocean feels like she has been here before. It feels like she was around us long before she came here. When she looks into your eyes it feels like she can really see you, she connects, she communicates in subtle ways. When she is very excited she buries her face in my chest, when she wants milk she makes little noises and sounds like a squawking bird.

She loves her showers with dad, and the girls help me get her ready for bed every night. I swear she says hi when you say hi to her and she is trying to wave to everyone but me. When I wave at her and say hi she just looks at me and smiles but if someone else comes in and waves at her she lifts her arm and turns her hand and matches their pitch with a noise.

The baby stages blow my mind. They change so much from week to week.

She isn’t rolling over and back on her own very often, it happens more so when I’m not looking so I can’t leave her on the couch or near the edge of the bed. Her doctor said she needs a lot of floor time so thats our goal.

Mama:
I’m gearing up for some work soon so I am focusing on moving my body every single day. I want to feel strong and confident because as you know coming out of early postpartum can feel like waking up from a really good dream but you are still half asleep. Mom brain is in full effect but I am trying to do things to help my brain. I am drinking absorb “restore,” which is keeping me hydrated and my immune system boosted. I am doing cold plunge a few days a week as well as sauna. I am strength training and running on the treadmill. All of this has made me feel good and helped my body and brain to wake up and be more efficient.

I feel like PP lasts for a long time. It can take a really long time to feel like you are back fully in your body again (not by the way it looks but just how you feel) and maybe you won’t feel that way for a long time or maybe it will come sooner for you. For me it takes about a year. I am doing things this time to see if I can get that feeling sooner but we will have to see. Either way I am working on prioritizing things that set me up for a better day/week. Sleep, body movement, good food, coffee, supplements and time to practice gratitude.

And with that I leave you with this. This month I have felt overwhelmed with gratitude that Ocean came to us. We wanted her for years and I felt her all around me. There were times when I felt deep sadness as I lost pregnancies and as I tried to conceive again and it didn’t happen. Deep in my soul I knew she was coming and that I would have to let go and allow her to come in her time. She chose the most perfect time to arrive in our family. She was the light we all needed after a dark start to our year. I look at her every single day and I just feel so honored to be her mama.

More soon…

Xo

Sarah